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Letter to friends

"Thanks peach for taking time to let us know what's going on...we missed you on Friday! I really liked Pastor Jojo's sermon too, it really spoke to what I'm going through and challenged me, a lot.

"Well, somebody already knows what I've been going through this week, but just to clue you all in:

"It's boyfriend stuff (What else!). Basically, I was faced with deciding what was God's will for my life, whether He wanted me to get married or not. It came from the stuff Austin & I are starting, mostly saving money to get married and because I had not yet answered this question for myself, I was having a hard time being on the same page as he. Austin has no doubts. But I did. Long story short, God used my parents, the Bible, several helpful web pages, prayer and His special revelation to show me that the things that I want to do in my life, I can't do without help, and that He was giving me Austin to be my helper, my partner.

"That was big. The impact of the revelation, the moment when I broke down before my God and told Him, 'Okay. I will do what you want.' I was crying and for the first time in months, I was at peace. My friends will tell you that I am always worrying, always anxious about something. It's something I struggle with. But at that moment I had the answer to a question that I had been asking ever since I was a lonely junior higher with acne and no friends, and I heard about people like Paul the Apostle and Jesus and all the people who never got married. I kinda thought I was supposed to be lonely for my whole life, because I was so used to it. It was my 'fate.'

"God wants us to be happy. I know it's not a huge surprise, but for me it is so difficult to strike that fine balance between what I, me, I want, and denying that to serve God. When's the point at which we 'give in' to our desires? I think my dad put it best: If you are actively seeking God's will, praying, reading your Bible, going to church, surrounding yourself with other members of God's family, doing your best to obey Him, and, most importantly, earnestly seeking to do His will, the things that you desire will be the things God desires for you!

"Psalm 37:4 says, Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust in Him and He will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

"This verse I just now remembered. I started crying again because I felt so silly forgetting it! Duh! No wonder my dad said what he said.

"Point: God is good. He doesn't want us to be miserable.

"I love you guys! I hope and pray that He works in your lives to make you into, happy, FULFILLED women of God.
Love to my sisters from our Father!"

marmelad

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